though

when I was a child I couldn't laugh when i didn't mean , I couldn't hug you If I didn't feel you keen

I couldn't lie for mum sake because its a promise I take 

little words were pleasing me for knowing that people are truth-worthy .

I used to dance and run after butterfly sing my song and release sadness in a sigh 

longing when to be a big girl with long hair and high heel.

I will be a lady of my time , with nothing to fear and people would say "what is so in her' 

mean while , that big girl came in the ball opened her dreams bag .....nothing she could recall .

she broke her high heel and just went on with an empty bgy to be replaced in with tangible lesson but that new jaws and lies didn't fit her bag , she took them anyway before anyone would come to drag. 

IS IT BETTER !!!!!!

once upon a time a guy asked a girl " would you marry me " the girl said "NO" and the girl lived happily ever after, went shopping, dancing, always had a clean house , never had to cook, do whatever the hell she want, never argued , didn't get fat, traveled more and had all the hot water to herself . Never watched sport " football" . she had high self esteem , never cried or yelled , felt and looked fabulous and was pleasant all the time .BUT is it better to scarify your only love by living a better life alone !!!!!!!! 

Sometimes

Sometimes i wanna soar and other feeling lonely behind my door.

Sometimes am dancing with the star and other i feel i am stone pushpin down into fear.

Sometimes i feel i got all what i wanted and other discovering i was simply mocked.

Sometimes happily " what a perfect me" and other i couldn't stand on my knee.

Sometimes with a big smile at the mirror and other in my bed when mum is calling but i have no answer.

Sometimes all is mine and other i should hide my weakness saying " i don't mind "

Bad Experience

sometimes when we go through a bad experience in our life we stop and start think , shall we proceed and go one through our life a gain or pretend as if nothing happened .. or shall we stop for a while and take our breath and start all over again ... for me i don't know will, will it take sometimes to forget , or will i still live in the memory that i used to have with.

sometimes we feel that we just find the one whether a friend or a lover , and start to draw our life with that special person, and we start to give everything and anything to that friend/ lover just asking for with a big smile in our face and unlimited love in our heart and we did all these and waiting nothing back from him , but suddenly we wake up on the worst nightmare ever , or to proof something to him / herself sometimes we find some people who are sick for getting hurt every time by some other people , so they make their to task to broke others heart , just to get their revenge 

the question is , shall we forgive them and give them another chance or shall we do our best to forget them , but sure it will take sometimes and sure we will be hurted because this special person in not around anymore but also we should fight to overcome this , other wise we will live in our sweet memories and maybe this special person is enjoying his life and giving no attention 

finally , who said that love is the medicine for the broken hearts , was wrong , or way be we are the one who wrong by choosing the wrong one , whether a friend or a lover