Extraordinary mind

I do not care what car you drive. Where you live.If you know someone who knows someone who knows someone.If your clothes are this year's cutting edge.If your trust fund is unlimited.If you are  A-list B-list or never heard of you list.I only care about the words that flutter from your mind. they are the only thing you truly own. the only thing i will remember you by.I will not fall in love with you bones and skin. I will not fall with the places you have been. I will not fall in love with anything but the words that flutter from your extraordinary mind.

love didn't fade away

you are the best thing ever happened to me. the time we were together we are amazingly totally in love with each other. I remember these days as if it was yesterday. we got through hell of troubles and still we were stick to each other and we didn't leave each others side. I love you so much to the extent that I couldn't get to sleep before making sure that you got home safely .

I am out of words because nothing ever can express what i feel now. I can't realize the fact that your gone and especially that your gone without getting the chance to call you , take to you or even hear your voice.

It hurts so much.

I wish i die so i can be there with you because simply i can not imagine life without you being here. I miss looking in you eyes, hearing your voice and i miss your smile face and your laugh...

I am sorry for the time i did not pick up the phone and call you . i was just afraid of what happened before and of falling in love with you again.

lover never be just friends .

I pray for you every day

you might not be with us anymore, but I know you are looking after us and filling our life with love and warmth like you always did even from a distance.

I got to tell you one day how much I love you and appreciate your existence and imprint in my life and I 'm grateful for that. you have been the most influential person in my life after my mother and i know i would have ever been who I am if it weren't for you. I just wish you knew how many people love and appreciate you because they are more than you can imagine.

I might be sending this in the void but you will never be forgotten. you were a beacon and idol. you were unique , you were a true human. You were what any of us would hope to become one day you whether push forward , you were the kind heart and the sound mind. You are inside everyone of us.

though

when I was a child I couldn't laugh when i didn't mean , I couldn't hug you If I didn't feel you keen

I couldn't lie for mum sake because its a promise I take 

little words were pleasing me for knowing that people are truth-worthy .

I used to dance and run after butterfly sing my song and release sadness in a sigh 

longing when to be a big girl with long hair and high heel.

I will be a lady of my time , with nothing to fear and people would say "what is so in her' 

mean while , that big girl came in the ball opened her dreams bag .....nothing she could recall .

she broke her high heel and just went on with an empty bgy to be replaced in with tangible lesson but that new jaws and lies didn't fit her bag , she took them anyway before anyone would come to drag. 

IS IT BETTER !!!!!!

once upon a time a guy asked a girl " would you marry me " the girl said "NO" and the girl lived happily ever after, went shopping, dancing, always had a clean house , never had to cook, do whatever the hell she want, never argued , didn't get fat, traveled more and had all the hot water to herself . Never watched sport " football" . she had high self esteem , never cried or yelled , felt and looked fabulous and was pleasant all the time .BUT is it better to scarify your only love by living a better life alone !!!!!!!! 

Sometimes

Sometimes i wanna soar and other feeling lonely behind my door.

Sometimes am dancing with the star and other i feel i am stone pushpin down into fear.

Sometimes i feel i got all what i wanted and other discovering i was simply mocked.

Sometimes happily " what a perfect me" and other i couldn't stand on my knee.

Sometimes with a big smile at the mirror and other in my bed when mum is calling but i have no answer.

Sometimes all is mine and other i should hide my weakness saying " i don't mind "

Bad Experience

sometimes when we go through a bad experience in our life we stop and start think , shall we proceed and go one through our life a gain or pretend as if nothing happened .. or shall we stop for a while and take our breath and start all over again ... for me i don't know will, will it take sometimes to forget , or will i still live in the memory that i used to have with.

sometimes we feel that we just find the one whether a friend or a lover , and start to draw our life with that special person, and we start to give everything and anything to that friend/ lover just asking for with a big smile in our face and unlimited love in our heart and we did all these and waiting nothing back from him , but suddenly we wake up on the worst nightmare ever , or to proof something to him / herself sometimes we find some people who are sick for getting hurt every time by some other people , so they make their to task to broke others heart , just to get their revenge 

the question is , shall we forgive them and give them another chance or shall we do our best to forget them , but sure it will take sometimes and sure we will be hurted because this special person in not around anymore but also we should fight to overcome this , other wise we will live in our sweet memories and maybe this special person is enjoying his life and giving no attention 

finally , who said that love is the medicine for the broken hearts , was wrong , or way be we are the one who wrong by choosing the wrong one , whether a friend or a lover